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I finally got to sing at Gio's a few weeks ago.
I love to sing
I was freaked when the music started because it wasn't the same version i knew... :S
I missed the first line and looked like a fool but I caught the second one and went on from there
I heard someone say it was their song and I felt bad that I was butchering it
I just wanted to be done with it because I was so nervous
I felt like I was shaking so much that the mic was gonna fall, hah
I don't think I did that bad though, which is a good thing because I'm so self-conscious
I think it was overall good for my first time
I know I could have done better though so next time, it'll come out
I swear. :)
I have been feeling pretty weird for the past while.
I know why, but I don't usually like talking about my problems
I hate to keep thinking about it and bringing it up, but
I understand that it's important to talk about what's on your mind, whether it's with someone else or not...
I guess that's why I'm letting it out on here...
I can't help but wonder sometimes... not about anything specific, just about me
I try to feel happy all the time
I perceive myself to be a positive person
I always try to look on the bright side of any situation and it usually works
I realize that it's easier said than done...
I can stop thinking about it now because it's not that big of a deal anymore but it will always be there
I will never get it out of my head, not that I necessarily want to
I forget...
I love the fact that school is almost over!
I still have a few exams to write but I's sure it'll be fine
I aced my last french test and I can't wait for summer to get here
I applied for a couple jobs
I was told that I'm a shoe-in for both but I don't want to get my hopes up
I want to play outside right now, it's a beautiful day
I wish I had a dog with which to play
I really am lonely sometimes
I adore my cats, but they can't fill the hole in my soul hehe
I watched a movie last night, it was really good!
I think it was called ''Lucky Number Slevin'', watch it
I guarantee that you'll like it!
I know ;)
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I was dissapointed that I wasn't able to sing at Gio's last wednesday. I'd never done karaoke before but I was pretty nervous. Shame on you guys for not pressuring me into adding my name right away!
I'm so happy today!!! :D
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| Birthday!! |
[14 Sep 2005|12:24am] |
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Well, by popular demand (by Marisa) I am posting an entry once more, because i havent done so in a very long time... The 11th was my birthday. I went out with a few friends, had a blast at Pasquale's on Marion I got a drink and Rom unscrewed the hot peppers so that they all fell into Steph's onion soup! HAHA great times :) We went back to my place and tried about 4 beer vendors but they were all closed, and we didnt feel like going to the Marion Hotel and get raped so we just went to my place :P I did get drunk the 2 nights before my birthday though. First there was the boat cruise for the CU, what a blast!!! I had sooooo much fun! And i just talked all night :P who'd a thunk. Then Ju, Karina and Steph were over the next day (10th) and, at midnight, we raided the fridge of booze (we still have to go and buy some to replace it :P) and then there were beautiful Aurora borealis outside. Tomorow is Pharaohs to celebrate (In order) Karine's, Ben's (me :D), Gab's and Corey's birthdays all at once! I should be quite interesting :P
Pharaohs isnt gonna be the big event this week though, despite the compilment of 4 (almost) conseccutive birthdays because I'm celebrating (because I really didnt get anything very special on the actual day) my birthday with a biiiiig party at Desire's! It will be sooooo fun because absolutely everyone is going! (Wish you could be here Marisa and Andrée!!!) And plus I'll get to party with my gay friends too :D so it'll be a huge night! Lots of free booze haha! Everyone seems so excited for it too so that's putting me in a good mood :D
University started last week. I start every day at 8:30 in the morning and end at different times throughout the week and i have 3 labs (bio, chem and calc) that are 3 hours long each!! That takes up one day of the week each from 1 to 4 pm :P It will be quite an eventful semester, to start with. I'm also taking French (which has a lab of 1 hour long from 11:30 to 1 pm) and Philosophy which sounds really interesting :D. Today though, I participated in a contest to win a motorised scooter. My name got picked from a draw and, along with 6 other students, i had to fight for the ownership of the 'cyclo-moteur'. The competition was simple, you hear it used very often; you have to stand next to the scooter and keep a hand on it at all times. There were specific rules: no sitting, no eating, no physical contact, same hand on the scooter at all times and, every 30 min, we had to drink a whole glass of water. Now i thought that i would last long enough and that i had a chance, but was i ever wrong! out of the 7, i was the 3rd to leave (but another guy left right after me [he said he would if i did] so i guess i kinda got 3rd-4th :P) but i swear that my bladder would have exploded. If it werent for all the water, i would have stayed there for a long time. That meant that i missed the morning classes (Philo and french) and those would have been my second classes of each since we only have them twice a week and that we only had them once last week. So i kinda missed that, but i guess it was kinda fun to compete :P
Well, there isnt much more i could say, thats what's been on my mind lately so until next time, keep fit and have fun *BODY BREAK* (with Hal Johnson and Joanne McLoed) BAHN!
-Benny
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| Graduation - friends |
[22 Jun 2005|02:08am] |
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Everyone says they're excited to graduate... I think it's just the massive party they're looking forward to. Think about it, you'll never see most of these people ever again. It's quite sad how you've grown with these friends, be they your best, your close, your good, or your daily talk-to-ers, you will miss them.
All the people that you don't really talk to regularly but when you do, it's a great time, or when you hang out with them, you have loads of fun.
All the people that you talk to in class and laugh all the time at teachers and just get to talk when there's no one else there.
All the people who are nice to you in the halls, that say hi and that put a smile on your face just because.
Those people have been with us during the most important part of our lives. This is when we find ourselves, when we mold our lives and have our hardest times. This is when we start living, when you have all your firsts;
first kiss
first love
first drink
first party
first real inside joke
first time at the bar
first clique
first time driving
first real drama in your life
just to name a few, you all know what I mean... These people define you, they help you grow, they define who you are and how you live. They made you who you are today. Every single person has an impact on you. These friends have done so much for you without even realizing it. They are family that you can talk to when you dont know where to go. But now they're going away. Think about that when you graduate, you can't take for granted all the times you've spent with them anymore. You can't be angry at them for anything anymore. They've done too much for you. You cannot aford to forget them.
Congradulations
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| Camp! |
[02 Jun 2005|06:00pm] |
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Well canoe camp was just the funnest camp ever! I had sooooooo much fun, except that I didnt have my camera this time since i lost it at Assessipi for Ski trip... but other ppl have lots of pics so its all good! I'm excited to see them all! The portages were somewhat excruciating (probably didnt spell that right) but they were all worth it. Seeing that beautiful cabin on the island was so spirit-lifting!
The conoeing was fun and relaxing, and the sauna at 80C was insanely hot but the completely frozen lake made it all better in the end :D. I would do the whole thing all over again in a second! The girls should have stayed in a bit longer... It was quite numbly comfortable when you stayed in for a few minutes.
It was fun discussing with Ghis the limits of killing bugs that were crawling around everywhere. Although it got quite heated at some points, I hope she learned something that could be of use to her in the future. I think we all might have learned something... from all the Trivia we've been reading for no apparent reasons. It was great nonetheless.
the bigs werent that bad though, only on the day we did the whole trip back. Everyone was pissed off at all the mosquitoes and the woodticks that were everywhere, but we just had to jump in the water and they were gone. I didnt get to see the deer, that sucks, cuz you know how i would have loved to have seen that! The bald eagles were beautiful though!
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| Lets try this one more time...! |
[02 Jun 2005|05:59pm] |
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01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.
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[21 May 2005|09:59am] |
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Well... this sucks, Lolita (my older sister) is having ppl over on the same night that i'm having my party!! I planned mine before she did and she just acts like she's the one that can decide everything. Well she'd better not get in my way! :P cuz I cleaned the whole house and even the backyard for my party... And I really dont know what she's gonna do with a dozen of her friends, there'll be no room!
Anyways... I got elected to sing at grad! I'm so excited but I have no idea what i'm going to sing, if you have any suggestions, please let me know! It has to be a french song (well i'm not positive about that but i'd prefer one anyway) and, as some of you know, I'm better at singing jazz, so lets see those comments fly in! :D
Entrainement camp is friday! So is semis of soccer! I'm gonna go to soccer first and then to camp, it's gonna be such a blast! It sucks that I lost my camera though :P I even had a waterproof casing that I could have used! ARRRGGG. Well at least I get to go, unlike some ppl who dont even want to go at all! Crazy mofos!
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| a little bit of 'IMAGINATION' |
[07 May 2005|02:18pm] |
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01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.
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[05 May 2005|04:35pm] |
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Yay! finally, défilé is over! Not that i didnt like it... it was the funnest thing ever! and everything went so well, we only got 1 complaint that 3 grad dresses needed to be cleaned, thats it! But at least there's nothing to worry about anymore, oh, except for all the thank you notes that Nadz, Jewels and I have to write to everyone (sorry, none for students) but then we're done :D We did a really good job everyone! Congrats!!
I made the soccer team, unofficially. I'm pretty sure to get in tho, since i'm finnissant and i'm not bad at the sport. We played yesterday against some stupid team and we won 6-0, pretty good for a first game! I havent played in the longest time so i'm pretty excited about playing once more, it'll be fun, although i dont really have any close friends on the team, but i guess thats a way to be better friends with the 4 other S4 on the team (Dom, J-P, Serge and Dan M)And now that that thing happened today (rumours have it that someone (namely Serge that black guy) had a gun or a weapon at school) i'm sure he wont be on the soccer team anymore so thats a plus for me! :D (crazy bastard! And on the day we were watching Bowling for Columbine too...)
Since I apparently didnt finish all my modules for Ed. Phys (which is bull cuz i was sure i had done them all), I have to do musculation every once in a while during lunch, so if i'm missing, you know why. It's only for 10 days anyway, cant be that bad...
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post the names of 15 of your favorite bands / musicians. See who can guess which is your (current) favorite song by each.Once someone guesses right, bold that row, include the name of the song and the person who guessed it.
(in no particular order...)
1. Train - Drops of Jupiter (Dre)
2. Micheal Bublé -
3. The Rasmus - In the Shadows (Dre)
4. Hot Hot Heat - Bandages (Dre)
5. Mark Anthony - No Me Ames (Kristyn)
6. Hoobastank - Running Away (Aly)
7. Lit - Miserable (Pat)
8. Oasis - Wonderwall (Dre)
9. Coldplay - Yellow (Pat)
10.Third Eye Blind -
11.Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing (Dre)
12.Pearl Jam - Do the Evolution (Aly)
13.Smash Mouth - I'm a Believer (Kristyn)
14.Great Big Sea -
15.Switchfoot - Meant to Live (Aly)
YOU CAN DO IT!
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[09 Apr 2005|06:57pm] |
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post the names of 15 of your favorite bands / musicians. See who can guess which is your (current) favorite song by each.Once someone guesses right, bold that row, include the name of the song and the person who guessed it.
(in no particular order...)
1. Train - Drops of Jupiter (Dre)
2. Micheal Bublé -
3. The Rasmus - In the Shadows (Dre)
4. Hot Hot Heat - Bandages (Dre)
5. Mark Anthony - No Me Ames (Kristyn)
6. Hoobastank - Running Away (Aly)
7. Lit - Miserable (Pat)
8. Oasis - Wonderwall (Dre)
9. Coldplay - Yellow (Pat)
10.Third Eye Blind -
11.Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing (Dre)
12.Pearl Jam - Do the Evolution (Aly)
13.Smash Mouth - I'm a Believer (Kristyn)
14.Great Big Sea -
15.Switchfoot -
I know that many of these are quite easy, lets just see how you guys do!
P.S: the Mark Anthony one is a duet with J Lo ;)
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[19 Mar 2005|06:29pm] |
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It's been such a long time since my last entry! I was so happy after boite à chansons!! That made me feel so good! I got so much positive feedback about my singing! Thanks so much everyone for believing in me!!! I love you all! I feel so much more at ease singing. Not only in front of an audience, but just at any time. And everyone who's heard me for the first time have been really nice! :D It's so overwhelming and I kinda regret not having sang for boite à chansons earlier in the years. I couldnt first semester because of Camp, obviously, you were all there :P (it is only Kris, Aly and Marisa who read these, right? haha)
The Défilé is finally comming together. We posted up the tableaux for the first two themes and most of it looks really good, i'm sure NO ONE will have ANY problems with anything! I have decided to sing at the Défilé too. Alot of girls have asked me to sing with them and i would like to sing with more than one but we'll see how that goes. I will be dancing with Karine for Bal and I want to sing for Swing :D i'm really excited! (8) Fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars (8)
Spain is thursday! HELLO!!! that's soooo soon! it's insane, just the thought of it...! i'm so excited!! I will get stuff for everbody! I will need your adresses so that i can send you postcards and whatnot. I will miss you guys that arent going though! I'm sure you'll have alot of fun in New York Marisa! and Aly, in Florida!!!! that's awesome! And Pat, Karine and Aly, going to the Junos!! YAY. I got some new clothes for Spain! some really awesome stuff! i'll wear one of the shirts on monday, i love it! and i got new shoes too :D I'm almost ready to go! I just need to get everything together, that's all!
Badminton season started! I'm really pumped for that! As long as Waldie shows up to enough practices to actually be able to be my partner! I swear Stan will put me with A-rod again!!! EUGH *knock on wood* It will go well though, i'm sure of it. It does suck that there arent alot of ppl on the team this year though. We'll manage. I'm coaching the little 7iemes 3 times a week! it's insane. It's so exhausting to get up at 7 twice a week to teach them the BASICS!! they dont even know what a dégagé is!! And you all know how i dont really like children! Sometimes it's just really hard to handle 30 kids alone! (because Corey doesn't help much, if at all q: ) The clinique is tomorow morning at 8.30! i'm not really happy about that, and I dont know if i'm gonna go... but i know that i will, haha. At least i'll know what to do with the little buggers at the practices now... right?
well that's what's new with my life, if you guys werent aware :P which i'm sure you were ;) chao!
Benny
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| boredom is fun!! |
[13 Feb 2005|12:30am] |
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Well!... cantine wasnt that bad this weekend... i did spend 25% more time there this weekend than i did last... but this one was better cuz the games were really intense! I have to admit that watching JV basketball is quite entertaining (for those of you who dont know, i hate basketball soooooo much)
Obviously we did get bored... so we took tape and taped up our fingers in different ways and it was a blast! Cant really elaborate on that cuz you wouldnt get it :P I just love how inventive we can be when we have nothing to do! Try it sometime!
I drew a little drawing for Stan on a plate :D i'm so proud of it, its pretty funny! haha I'll show you all someday, if he doesnt trhow it away :P If he does, i'll pick it out of the garbage! I think he threw out the other drawing that me and Aly made for him :(
:O that makes me think of something! I have to go work on something right now so i'll talk to you guys later! chao
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[31 Jan 2005|07:12pm] |
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Well... I'm done my first physics exam! What a relief, it was alot easier than i had anticipated! Unless i just thought that because every formula i used was wrong :S Since I was doing bad in class... I should hope that i get a good mark on the exam so that i dont fail!!! If i fail, i dont know what i'd do, i would seriously.... well i cant finish that sentance because i dont know what i'd do :P HAH! Good thing I'm getting some laughs out of this!
Pat and Brig told me about the english exam, that I have to write tomorow... and they made it seem horrible! I dont want to go through with it! I hate the english exam but I loved that class so much! I am also very happy to state that, with the help of Pat and Sylvie, we have acquired the title of WORD GAME CHAMPIONS! I was so happy because... well i dont really know why, but i've always loved that game! It's sad to see it go, english class was so fun! I also have to say goodbye to math... :D YIPEE I hated her so much! Countless times Mel, Mart, Tara, Pat, Karine and I have dissed her "teahcing" methods! She was full of it and that (along with Auger and Chamberland) is one thing I wont regret leaving behind... I think we all know who isnt getting my grad picture! HAHA
Next semester will be more packed, but I hope it'll be less stressful. I have spanish which will rock because we're going to Spain! (YIPEE) and I also have french which will rock because Aly and I are gonna have tons of fun in that class! Then chemistry, which I actually like! I had the highest mark in it last year, I was so happy! :D But then there's Physics... It will be better than it was first semester because I'll be with friends and not with a bunch of little poops with whom I can't socialize :P (see the use of what we learned in english :D). I have no spare next semester either :( that sucks, but i'll survive! I'll even try to drop Physics if I really can, but I know that I should stay in it in case I "need" it in the future. Stupid requirements for becoming vets :P Oh well, nothing worthwhile is easy, I always say! HAH, ya right.
I was just mentionning to Kar that I might want to start taking singing lessons, but I have to get over my fear of public presentation first! As those of you who have seen me present my speech in english class already know, I am VERY fidgety! We've concluded that I am confident, but I have an unavoidable fear of being judged :S Hopefully I will learn to suppress this fear in singing class... I don't know when I want to start though, what do you guys think?
see you guys later and good luck with exams!
cherio, Ben
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Well first off, I want to give attention to what has happened in Indonesia and Sri Lanka because it is devastating :|. You know, if we would have gone to Bali, we would have been there right now and might have been cought in that huge tsunami :S that's very frightening!
Christmas for me was alright. It was a relief to stay in town for once and not be travelling somewhere again. I hope that my dad, dre and max had fun though! And I hope that my mom gets back safely from Willow Bunch with the rest of her family :)
How have your holidays been so far? chao
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[19 Dec 2004|11:53pm] |
about everyone who did the month thing... you're supposed to bold the 4 things that you think are most true about yourself, then cross out the things you think are not true at all... the way to do this is (without going in rich text format) you put < s > before the word(s) you want to strike out and < / s > after the words, for bold, you just add a "b" instead of "s" (u for underline, i for italic, etc.)(you cant put more than 1 letter between <>s)
N.B: i put spaces between the characters or else it actually does the thing :P so take of the spaces... and what i striked out... you have to read it, i was just demonstrating on how it looks!
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SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
( check your month )
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| Camp! |
[11 Dec 2004|06:55pm] |
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Ok... camp was a blast, I dont just mean "it was super fun!", I mean "IT WAS THE BEST FRICKEN CAMP EVER!!!". That was TOOO fun! The football, toboganning, 500! :D:D:D I would do that again in a heartbeat! I'm gonna make a slideshow of all the pics and videos that I got cuz there are some really great ones! Stan and PM dancing! Dan doing his little jump and Serge tripping when he does the squat (or whatever its called). The CanCan was horrible, but funny nonetheless.
Although you cant see them, Ev and PM are the stars of their own feature films! They were so loud that I had to tape them. 30 seconds of snoring each! HAHA. The rest of the Stan pics are gold! They are the funniest pics of him that I could ask for!
I had the longest fire shift!!! 3 fricken hours! I was sooooo tired on the way home, I kept dozing off then waking up again, it was really weird. We cut way too much wood :P Everyone (except Aly, Kris, Marisa, Nadine and Ghis) snored (and/or sleeptalked)! And I was awake through it all! Everyone, at some point between 6 and 9am, got up and looked at me by the fire, then went back to bed! I was so lonely by that fire :(
The weather was perfect! I was super hot most of the time! barely had any clothes on when we were playing football and 500. Mel actually asked if I had ever considered playing football! HAH, ya right, I cant play football, but I'm flattered that she suggested it! Pauvre Mé can never catch the ball LOL.
I think I'm the only one who pegged Stan on the hill... and I did it twice! Wow that was great, I had a scare for my life, luckily Aly was there to distract him while i jumped over the trees! It looked like he was groping her HAHAHAHA, you know he really likes you Aly! ;) Those stories that he tells you must be soooo fascinating! Its so romantic, sitting on the top of a hill all alone, him cooling the big pump on your head caused by Jacques's hair pulling, and listening to stories :) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LMFAO oh my! (you'll never let me hear the last of this one, i know it!)
The snow was so beautiful on the last day, I loved it, it was just the wrong timing :P Wasnt too hard to get out of there though. It was great to get to know all these people better. We had the best of times, no arguments (except Serge and Mel but that was hilarious!), no one was sad or too cold, it was all around super great but now I'm sore all over (mostly my legs since we were pulling the traineaux) and I'm pooped out :P chao!
Ben
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This isnt even funny! I went to go see Mme. Clément to change my physics and everything... and everything went great! It was all fine, it took us 10 just to make sure that i could drop the classes (i wont take bio by correspondance tho, too expensive :S) and then right after the bell rang, she says "Bien c'est pas un problème si tu veut entrer en... quoi, microbiologie?" and right when she said that, I froze, I replied "Non, sciences vétérinaires". She had the blankest look on her face! I was terrified! That might mean that I DO have to finish my physics 30S!! Then we had to spend another 15 to check if I did need it to go to UofR(egina) and then she had to call there, they kept transfering her to someone else... All this time i'm just standing there hoping to god that I dont have to finish it (cuz i had skipped classes and even missed a test!) WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!!!??? This sucks so much! I swear i'm gonna cry...
A guy is supposed to call her tomorow to say if i need to take physics 40S!!! WHAT IF I HAVE TO TAKE THAT TOO??!?!?!!! I cannot go through with it! Maybe if i just let go of my life-long dream of becomming a vet and I just become a microbiologist! :D that'll work! :S :S :S :'(
So many things are going on at once, it was the wrong timing :( I've never been so emotional in my life, I don't know what to do about anything anymore. It's like I'm watching my life crumble before me and I dont have enough arms to hold it together and pick up the pieces. I'm so stressed out and tired... I don't think I can do camp anymore :( everything is screwed up. And although I kinda hope some of you try to lend me an arm, what I need from you is too hard to ask so don't bother :'(
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I am a bit angry today, but I calmed down when we went to see Cal! :D it was great fun! She helped rekindle my crochet skills haha. I used to be so much better than her and she was jealous but now she can make scarves! and I can make diddly squat :S And she's gonna make one for meeeee!!
I still have to read "The Bomb Party" and have to do math but I really don't feel like it. I know it's easy but I'm just angered and impatient. All this stuff going on, all so confusing, disorienting, angering, and pathetic! If only I could find a clever way of getting out of it all!
be patient for me
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